Hanging Around and Growing Fast

My little Doodle Bug is growing faster and faster every day. I can not believe he is already 14 weeks old (3 1/2 months). I love how fast the time is going in the perspective that the time is flying and the hubby will be home soon, but I also want to freeze time and keep him this small forever. I want to hang onto the little moments that we share every day that make the rest of the world disappear. Just cuddling him after feeding him as he falls asleep. The sleepy face smiling ever so slightly every now and then from the amazing dreams and thoughts going through his little mind. I guess it is pretty inevitable, my babies are growing. I still think of Little Dude as my baby boy, so I don't know if I will ever be able to see my Doodle Big as big. Most days fly by and I wonder where in the world time has gone. And for those days that just don't seem like they will ever be over, I get out the camera and just have fun capturing those sweet moments the boys share together. Though Big Brother sometimes gets carried away, he means well, and I do my best to remember this in moments when all I want to do is scream and send him away for being so rough or crazy around the little guy. They are boys, and there is no other way to put it. They are going to get scrapes, bruises and scars. They are going to try to scare me half to death on a daily basis. If a day goes by and they do not worry me, well...then I guess we will have to worry. They are the best two little boys a mother could ask for and I truly feel blessed to have them in my life. I have yet to figure out what I am going to do with them once they are out of the baby/toddler/preschooler stage. Once they are "real" boys I will surely be in trouble. I am so used to all things girly, that I will not know about the new toy or crisis. There are things that Kristjan has brought up that I have no idea what to say. Issues with things like his "doodle" and other various guy things. The messy clothes, dirt balls and general interest in bugs...there are so many things that I guess I will have to conquer when they come up. Until then I will spend my precious time with them, enjoying every second I can.

New Year, New Me

This year I have decided that enough is enough. I almost have a one year old little boy, next month is his birthday. It is time that I get serious about my health and my body. It is not just about losing the weight, although that is certainly a reason for my motivation. I want to be able to live a life worth living. I want to be able to go outside in the evenings and kick that soccer ball around with my children or challenge them on that mile run of theirs. I want to set a healthy standard of living for not only myself but my family as well.
It is not just about me anymore. I have a husband and a son, both whom I want around for my entire life. I want us to be healthy and fit.

There are many goals I have for the year and this post will most likely be the longest one ever, but there is so much I need to write down, so much to be said.

My husband and I want what many American families want these days. A house, a family extra money here and there to go on vacations, to have everything we want. Well, we are going to make that happen.

I am big on family functions, even just going for a walk or playing in the back yard. Money does not have to be spent in order to have a successfully planned family day. I believe in the simple things such as playing charades when the power goes out, remaining active after a nice dinner with the family. Sit down dinners, that is a must. I want to have family nights and friends over all the time. My house will be one that is always welcoming others, where the neighborhood kids can all go and their parents do not have to worry about whether or not there will be supervision.

I want to have the kind of weeks my family did when I was growing up. Yes, work weeks are hectic, no doubt, but there is always time for family in that week. If there isn't then why are you living?

I want to have dinners with the ones I love and live with every night. They might not be gourmet dinners, but they will not be microwaved either. I want to sit around the table and eat a meal together, playing the "best/worst" game that I always played as a kid. Allowing everyone to learn about each other's days. After dinner I want my children to help clear the table and do the dishes. They will know what it takes to "run" a house and will take an active part in helping to maintain the cleanliness of the household.

After dinner the TV will not go on, if homework still needs to be finished that will happen. But I would like to be active. Take a walk around our neighborhood, go to the park and play around. Throw or kick a ball around in our back yard with the dog. Simple things that not too many people do these days. I want to have those moments still.

Fridays will be fun. Our children will be allowed to invite a friend or two over, we will make homemade pizzas and popcorn. Watch movies and play games. My husband and I will invite friends over as well to just have a good time with. Drinks, etc.

Saturday morning cartoons will be played and then chores will be done. Once those are done we (our family) will do something together. This will be our thing for the week, whether it be the zoo, aquarium, a water park, beach, etc, this is the day for any of those trips. Saturday nights can be cookouts or going out to eat depending on the week, but together.

Sunday mornings I want our children to wake up to the sound of music being played in the kitchen and Mommy and Daddy making breakfast. Sunday mornings will be our "big breakfasts." Then everyone will get ready and we will go to church. After church we will come home and change and just have a relaxing day. I think everyone still needs one of those in their weeks and few still have them. Even a mom who stays home all week, running errands, bringing so and so here and there, needs a day to just relax. To rejuvenate before another hectic week.

I want all this and more for my family....


However, right now I am back with my family in CT until the hubby returns home. I am receiving the support of both his family as well as my own. I have had a lot of help from them, but its about time to go home. Until then I have personal goals that i would like to see met...

I am in school again for Nursing. I am aiming to receive A's in my classes and so far am accomplishing this goal. I plan on graduating and then starting my career as a nurse. Eventually I will be going to med school and want to become a pediatrician, but my family comes first now and I will wait on that. Right now Nursing is my focus.

Along with school I am redoing me. I want to be healthy and lose weight. I will be starting my days earlier as well as ending them earlier. I love staying up later because this means I get to talk to my husband, but it also means I do less for myself. I will be waking up for 6am now. I will spend 10-15mins checking emails and doing the little things online that I need to do. Then I will begin to exercise, getting 45 mins at least in before taking a shower. By this time my Little Dude should be up. We will then have breakfast together. Eating healthy is a key to his nutrition and he depends on me for that. Because of this, I make sure I eat healthier as well. i.e. I do not want to feed him McDonald's, so it is cut out of my diet as well now. Some of these changes are hard, but I know they are worth it in the long run.

I am using the Wii fit to track progress and am doing well so far. I lost 14lbs last week when I was sick merely because I couldn't keep anything in, after that I decided that I should start living healthier.

I not only want to lose weight, but I want to be fit again. I want to be able to run a mile again in under 7 mins. I want to turn heads while doing it.

My husband and I are talking about going on a cruise this August. I want to be able to walk around in a bikini and not be ashamed. To know that if anyone is looking at me in it, it is not because they are thinking "Why the hell is she wearing that" but because I look good in it....

So I am determined to lose at least 16 more lbs and tone. I want to flatten my tummy again and work on getting rid of those stretch marks...

As of today I am 122 lbs. I want to try to lose the weight within two months. I know I can do it. I just need to stick to it.